Hey Gratisouls! How have you been? Its been a looooonnnngggg time, right? What have you guys been doing? You might be wondering why was I completely MIA since past one month (haha JK you have much better work rather than thinking about this thing, right?) Still, I’ll tell you guys why I was not posting anything because I like to share whatever is on my mind with you people because we are ‘Gratisoul community’.
This blog will be a short come-back kinda write-up so if you are not interested in reading about it any further, now is the time to escape and do something else (haha). I took a partial digital detox for a month where I uninstalled three main apps through which I communicate via Gratisoul, i.e. ‘Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter. Yes, a millennial uninstalling three main apps on which this generation lives on, it is a BIG DEAL (or at least to some of us, it is… haha).
ESCAPE THE VIRTUAL WORLD AND LIVE IN REALITY
The reason why I took this decision was that I wanted to gain a perspective on where I am going with my writing, what I actually want to write and what kind of message am I delivering. I was not happy because I felt that pressure to be a positive person all the time just because I am delivering positive messages out in the universe. Hence, I took it as a burden to write blogs which were once my happy place. I began stressing about posting regularly, creating content, posting creatives on social sites every day regarding positive and motivational messages which I was finding too hard to follow myself.
I was not practicing what I was preaching, and became a part of the rat race of “likes and comments”. Also, I was going through some personal problem of my own which I’ll tell you in my later blogs (P.S. it’s not that serious though, if anybody was wondering… haha). My mind was dwelling on negativity, stress, and anxiety whereas I was writing about positivity, motivation and how to grow through life happily, how ironic right? Yeah, I was thinking the same.
Maybe that’s what having a virtual social life does to you. It makes people believe that their lives are not perfect but they can make it perfect by following what ‘influencers’ tell them to. And that’s the real cause of every problem today- unhappiness, depression, loneliness, etc, etc. But I thought that no, I can’t go on like this. If I am not feeling what I am trying to convey I’ll not post it either. That’s why I uninstalled every social app, took a break, started enjoying the ‘real’ part of life.
TAKE A BREAK.
I have written about it in one of my blogs as well but I guess never got the time to do that in real life though. I took a break. At first, I felt what to do now? I mean literally, I felt what to do with my phone (haha). So, just to kill some time I installed one or two games which I used to play earlier, TBH it proved as a great distraction. I installed a news app too just to be aware of what is going on in the world (haha).
Apart from that, I started meditating whenever I got some time, went for morning jogs with my mom and then went to office and focused on my work, played badminton with my cousins every night, went for a one-day trip with my friends and soon I realized that I am enjoying this part of my life too. As I have told you earlier that I am an overthinker, so an ideal mind is a devil’s workshop. This idealness was majorly because I had nothing much productive to do at my work not because I took a digital detox, but because I was not satisfied with what I was doing, I wanted to do something productive and meaningful and was confused about what to do and how to do it? (I still am, but I tried to calm myself down and let life happen!) I began having negative thoughts about myself, about the people whom I loved very much, and since I can’t express how I feel quite often, I started keeping it all to myself and tried to overcome it on my own (P.S. that’s not a great idea people, the solution is to SHARE WHAT YOU FEEL). I failed.
Then, I started talking about it. To my friends and family. They listened, gave advice, made sure they were there for me whenever I needed them. But I still am figuring out how to focus my mind into something productive rather than wasting it on useless thoughts. I gained some strength to overcome these negative thoughts with the help of my people. I am still not completely over it, but yes, I am learning and growing through it, and I know one day I’ll master how to control my thoughts and align them into something more beneficial for me.
See, nobody is perfect, the difference is people don’t tell. They portray a flawless life, but in reality, it’s not, it can’t be, because nobody is flawless, nobody is perfect, we all make mistakes and learn from them. I am also learning and growing. I am still making mistakes, and will continue to make them and will tell you about it too because GRATISOUL IS NOT PERFECT. GRATISOUL IS NOT FLAWLESS. GRATISOUL IS A HUMAN WHO MAKES MISTAKES, LEARNS FROM THEM AND GROWS. GRATISOUL IS AN IMPERFECT HUMAN WHO EMBRACES THESE UNCERTAINTIES AND STILL TRIES TO ENJOY IT. ARE YOU A GRATISOUL?
ENJOY BEING IMPERFECT, BECAUSE PERFECT IS BORING
Don’t let people make you feel inferior about how you live your life. Whenever you feel that others are having ‘the time of their lives’ whereas you are just sitting at someplace and doing nothing ‘great’ just remind yourselves that you are lucky to be ALIVE. You have the potential to do anything. Don’t let anyone rush you. Take a break from this virtual world and try to live in the moment, with yourself and YOUR PEOPLE.
I’ll still be posting blogs, I’ll still be posting creatives, but this time there’ll be a slight difference. This time I’ll post something whenever I feel like, not for somebody’s likes or comments, but for MYSELF. I’ll not be posting something every day just for the ‘sake of it’ but when I’ll actually feel that I relate to something and can truly connect with it. GRATISOUL is not a platform to encourage virtual likes and approval or to gain a big audience who probably doesn’t care that much about what I want to say, but a platform where I can speak what I learn from life, what I want to convey and how I can bring a positive change in society in my own little way.
If you feel that you can resonate with me and my message and still want to hear from me or convey your message via this website, you are more than welcome to follow or write for me, and if you don’t want to follow me for I won’t be posting that often or you are unable to connect with my message, it’s been my pleasure for serving you for this long. Just like GRATISOUL, everybody is free to do whatever they want. Let’s create a change in this society one blog at a time.
Sorry, I said that it’ll be a short one, but you know me when it comes to expressing my feelings through words because I don’t know how or when to stop (haha). Looking forward to hearing from you guys as well. You can express whatever you want to in the comments below.
Until then, live positively and happily!